Changes Taking Place

As sad as it is, Lucas's daddy and I don't seem to get along all that well. I wish we could. I do love the man but if there is no communication then things just can't work. So now life is changing. Everything, most everything, that I have come use to having for over two years is gone. Gone are the phone calls and the text. It is sad. Sad for all involved. Ashton has to adjust to all of this along with Lucas and me. But as it is, Lucas will see his dad every other Sat to Sun. Then every other Friday night until Sat. At least he won't have to go but 5 days in a row without seeing his dad. He is young and this will be his normal.
This was always a difficult relationship. I will call him LD for Lucas's Dad. LD doesn't communicate all that well. He feels that anything you say is against him. I am not saying I am the best communicator but at least I try to see other points of view and not the tunnel vision of what is said. I didn't like doing nothing or getting any type of feeling that I was appreciated for all I have done and all I do. Being a mother is a very thankless job and I know this but being someone's girlfriend should not be that way. Relationships are hard. They require work and not just work from one side. If it is truely wanted then both need to work on it.
Someday, there will be someone who wants to be with me and will do what they can to make me smile. In return that is what they will get back from me. How can one give and give and never receive?
I know we should have went to counsiling a long time ago and the petty things that have torn us apart could have been resolved. But as I know from past experience, both have to want it and not just one person.
So now all I can do is move on for me, move on for my kids. We will be fine. We will be beyond fine. This year is going to be our year. We will have good fortune because we deserve it.