Time flies when you are.....

Busy
I have been so busy with school for myself and the boys it is crazy. I just feel like I need to stay busy so I don't think about how sad I really am. I am coping and life is changing. Lucas still has PT and ST speech therapy every other week. So once a week it is one and the other week it is the other. That keeps me busy.
It has been a month and a half since Lucas's daddy and I split. I am still sad about it. I miss him but there is nothing I can do. I don't want it to be like it was and it won't change so I have to move forward and try not to think about what could have been. I do get some free time to get my homework done each week. I hate not having my baby but I have to share. I am at the point in my life I miss my kids. All my kids. Marcus is so far away and a new baby coming, I hate not being a part of it. Nathan is doing his thing around here, getting ready to do some training for big equipment school. Ashton is at a great age but I don't get much time with him to have fun. We do homework and then it is dinner and then ready for bed. Don't leave much time for anything else. I really wish we had a Wii, him and I could play games and I know he would enjoy that and we both could get some exercise. Lucas is doing so much more and his recognition is amazing. I don't know how anyone could think he is mentally disabled. He is so smart. He is slower when it is coming to walking but he is now pulling up to the couch or anything he can and is getting stronger everyday. He actually can walk along the couch now. Probably because he has braces on his feet now. It is amazing what a few weeks can do for him.
I have to talk to the lady at First Steps. I don't feel that his speech therapist is all that great for us. She seems to be so negative all the time. Something I get tired of. She is my constant reminder that we don't have the typical baby. I love my baby and would never trade him for anything in the world. I want more positive and not the negative. Her needing to come is the only negative I wish to have.
School is going good. I want to have better grades and people think I am crazy for being so hard on myself but that is what I want. I started two new classes this week. It sure is getting harder as the time goes by.
So as if I am not busy enough, I decided I wanted to do some volunteer work. I am now volunteering every other Saturday at Liberty Hospital in the Gift Shop. Just for starters. I am hoping to be able to work more with patients but that didn't work for me yet. I need to have a every other Wed person so I can work in the PACU - Patient After Care Unit. That would be very interesting to do.
I also signed up to be an It Works distributor. Check me out at sonyahailey.myitworks.com
Well I am going for now, hopefully not so long this time but as you can see I can not guarantee anything.